it's going to hurt but i love the pain

it's going to hurt but i love the pain

veronica

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*INSIDE MY HEART DIES*

[Nov. 4th, 2004|10:11 am]

[	these eyes feel	\|	numb	]
[	here's another song for you	\|	always ~ bon jovi	]

Name: Veronica
Birth date: December 14
Birthplace: Lakewood NJ
Current Location: Lawrenceville
Eye Color: brown
Hair Color: light brown
Righty or Lefty: righty
Zodiac Sign: sagittarius
Innie or Outtie: gross

// series two -

The shoes you wore today: seeing as the day has just begun for me the only shoes i've worn are my panda slippers
Your hair: down
Your eyes: haha what the fuck
Your weakness?: love
Your fears: well i would say rejection, but i've expierecned it enough so it doesn't bother me...so i'd have to say death or being a long forever
Your perfect pizza: can't eat it
One thing you'd like to achieve: a relationship

// series three - what is
Your most overused phrase on aol\aim: lol
Your thoughts first waking up: damn i woke up!
The first feature you notice in the opposite (or same) sex: their personality, i like a guy who can make me laugh
Your best physical features: HA!
Your usual bedtime: before 3
Your greatest accomplishment: its going to sound weird but the fact that i haven't cut myself in 7 months...
Your best memory: none of the memories that come to mind are happy for me

// series five - do you

Smoke: yes
Cuss: all the fucking time
Sing well: ha no well yes .
Take a shower everyday: yes
Want to go to college: i am in college and it sucks
Like high school: yes and no
Want to get married: yes
Type with your fingers on the right keys: yes actually i do
Believe in yourself: sometimes but other times i don't give a fuck what myself thinks
Get motion sickness: sometimes
Think you're attractive: ha def not
Think you're a health freak: nope
Get along with your parents: most of the time
Like thunderstorms: O M G yes
Play an instrument: i used to play the bass and the piano but not anymore...

// series six - in the past month, did/have you

---> Drank alcohol: yes
---> Smoke(d): yes
---> Done a drug: well
---> Made Out: yes
---> Gone on a date: no
---> Gone to the mall?: yes
---> Been on stage: no
---> Been dumped: ya know it always happens to me i don't know why i bother
---> Gone skating: no
---> Made homemade cookies: no
---> Been in love: no and i prolly never will again
---> Gone skinny dipping: no
---> Dyed your hair: no
---> Stolen anything: yes

// series seven - have you ever?

---> Played a game that required removal of clothing?: no
---> If so, was it mixed company: no
---> Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: yes
---> Been caught "doing something": yes
---> Been called a tease: no
---> Gotten beaten up: no i do the beating
---> Shoplifted: no
---> If so, did you get caught: no
---> Changed who you were to fit in: I think everyone does that at one point in thier lives

// series eight - the future

---> Age you hope to be married: how about we work on getting me a boyfriend before we talk about getting married
---> Numbers and Names of Children: again i don't know
---> Describe your dream wedding: u have no clue
---> What age do you want to die: the way i feel now soon....but prolly at least 85
---> What do you want to be when you grow up: A PORN STAR!!!!!!!!!!
---> What country would you most like to visit: Canada
---> Current Clothes: shorts and a t-shirt
---> Current Mood: depressed
---> Current Taste: hah i dunno
---> Current Hair: i need to shower
---> Current Annoyance: BOYS FUCKING BOYS
---> Current Smell: Passionate kiss
---> Current thing you ought to be doing: showering
---> Current Desktop Picture: kristin and me
---> Current Favorite bands: allister, armor for sleep, autumn to ashes, blink 182, boxcar racer, bright eyes, coheed and cambria, eve6, face to face, fenix tx, finch, from autumn to ashes, green day, him, home grown, lost prophets, mae, mest, metallica, new found glory, no doubt, pink floyd, plain white t's, reel big fish, riddlin' kids, rufio, saves the day, senses fail, something corporate, straylight run, streetlight manifesto, taking back sunday, the all american rejects, the ataris, the cure, the darkness, the early november, the movie life, the starting line, the used, thrice, thursday, weezer, white light motorcade, yellowcard Dashboard, Big D and the Kids Table...too many
---> Current Book: none
---> Current DVD In Player: the ring
---> Current Worry: why is it that no matter how hard i try i'll never be good enough
---> Current Crush: chris but i am slowly getting over it

Favorite Questions:

colors: blue
numbers: 13
food: none
place: the shore.
friend: nikki and kristin
font: none
car: TIBBY...i love you
singer: dunno
and/group: SoCo
person: myself
time of day: night time
day of the year: none
piece of clothing: my big d t-shirt
quote: when god closes a door he opens a window
that way we have something to jump out of
restaurant: none i am trying this new diet i am not eating at all

This or that....

chocolate/vanilla: none
BSB/*NSYNC: none
*NSYNC/O-Town: none
BSB/O-Town: none
Aaron/Nick: none
yahoo/hotmail: neither
cable/dsl/dial up: cable
blue/black ink: black
pen/pencil: pen
glue bottle/stick: stick
saltine/oyster crackers: neither
car/truck: car
minivan/car: car
truck/minivan: truck
cats/dogs: cats
puppies/kittens: kittens

IM/chat room: IM
IM/msg board: IM
socks/no socks: socks
pushups/sit ups: sit ups
running/walking/jogging: walking

Random Stuff:

what time do you wake up? 10
what do you want to name your kids? God DAMn IT
do you want to get married? yes
how old do you want to be when you lose your virginity? well
favorite part of your life? when i still believed that you were ment for
is your fridge really full? ha no
do you type with the right fingers on the right keys? yes haven't we talked about this already
do you read fast? hell no
does your dad wear a suit and tie? on at funerals
what's your favorite body part of yours? well i don't have any but i have been told i have nice legs
least favorite? the whole thing
do you bite your nails? no
what do you want your future to be like? meaningfull.
what do you hate most about your personality? that i constantly put myself down i never thing i am good enough for anyone...and that i will be alone forever...i hate the way i look and how i act, and sometimes i just wish i was dead,,,, THATS MY PERSONALITY....

well i have to shower adn then go to work....
peace out cub scout....

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